Monday, September 26, 2011

This is hard!

Losing weight is so hard to do! I've been going to the gym as much as I can the past month...and 2 lbs. That's all I've lost so far!! I even signed up for personal trainers.  I'll meet with them 3x a month to keep me motivated and on track.
I know what's holding me back from losing more weight...and it's one of those things that my brain is saying, "You can't POSSIBLY live without that!"  And what is it? Sweets. Oh my gosh. I told Brian we're not allowed to have any sweets in the house anymore. No cookies, no pies, no brownies, no ice cream, no chocolate, no nothing. I have kettle corn -- that's my one thing I am not able to give up (and it's so much better than a huge bowl of ice cream!!).
I think once I give up sweets more (the last of it was eaten this weekend) I'll be able to lose more weight.
I've also been taking care of my poor husband who has been sick for the past week and a half!! He's had a fever every night...and when he went to the MD on Wednesday last week, they told him his WBC count was normal.  I made him go back to the MD today and he said they took like 6 vials of blood to run more tests. I'm worried about him...I have nightmares that I wake up and he doesn't =(
Well...I have my "before" pictures for my weight loss journey...but I'm not ready to post them up yet. It's embarrassing, really. Once I get down about 20 lbs, then I'll take some "mid-journey" weight loss pictures and post them up. My goal is to lose 35 lbs or so. I started out at 168 and my goal is 130-135.  A normal, healthy weight for a girl in her 20's that is my height.

Saturday, September 17, 2011

So tired...

I have had chronic lumbar back pain for ten plus years now. It's been nearly impossible for me to sit for more than 20 minutes doing most of the things I enjoy most, which includes sewing, crafting, and reading. I went and saw a medical doctor in early august, and he recommended physical therapy. My consultation was this past week and it went well. My first appointment is next Friday.
Other things that I have been doing to try to help is going to work out. I joined a gym and have been going at least 4x a week.
The most fervent thing I have been doing is praying. And now I'm asking others to pray also. I know it's a lot to ask for...but please pray for me every day. This is what I posted on my church's prayer website:

"My brothers and sisters in Christ, please pray for me. I am having another severe bout of lumbar back/spine pain. I am praying every day and I am getting angry that nothing I do physically or spiritually is helping. I know that the Lord is giving me this trial to further His glory, but I am tired of not being able to move to the best of my ability. I am tired of the pain. I am desperate for some healing. Please, please pray that God will heal my back. "

The bible says in Matthew 18:19-20, "Again, truly I tell you that if two of you on earth agree about anything they ask for, it will be done for them by my Father in heaven. For where two or three gather in my name, there am I with them."

Wednesday, September 7, 2011


So I've been pretty good about going and working out since I joined 3 weeks ago.  I've gone like 10 times in the last 3 weeks! I'm so proud of myself! And then I get sick this weekend. Yuck!!  It's not like, --I'm going to throw up --sick, more like my body doesn't handle extreme temperature/season changes well.  According to "On This Day in 2010..." on Facebook, I was sick too. Yay. Lucky me.  I'm feeling better, but I lost my voice this morning temporarily, so that was interesting working with patients with barely any voice and coughing all over the place.

In other news -- my sewing machine is on the fritz.  Of course, when I bring it in to the repair shop where they "tuned it up", it works perfectly fine, and what happens when I get home? It freaks out and doesn't work properly. Serves me right. I'm getting to the point where I'm going to just trade it in for a Janome.  I had a mini-sewing machine that was a Janome before buying the POS  that I have now, and it NEVER gave me any problems. We're talking about hemming stuff without any fuss whatsoever.

I'm also putting up some pretty cool decals in my "sewing/craft/computer" room.  They're supposed to look like this after it's done:

This is how it looks right now. It's a lot more work putting it up perfectly than it would seem!  And since it's close to 11 PM, I can't finish it tonight. I have to go to work tomorrow, lol.

Yup, one trunk. Oh well, the rest will be up soon.